Self Doubt

WOW what a week of painful head games and to be quite honest I'm not really sure what made them come about :( I have been battling all week really doubting myself about being ready for comp, not being the standard i want to be. I feel like i am working hard and getting no where. I also forget that how slow this process is and i am not the most patient person around. I just want to see changes faster :( I do tend to get a little caught up on what the scales say. And i do compare myself to where i have been at this point in the past. I would love to hear how others battle along when they hit sticky head games and feel like throwing it all in.

Currently 13 Weeks out and i do know a LOT can happen in 13 weeks i just feel like the weeks are flying by and Im playing catch up : ( I guess all i can do is give it my best and push on. I love what i do and i really want to get back up that stage this year i just have to do whatever it takes to get there.

Training this week has been pretty good I thought my first session of the week which was Lower Power, i could of possibly gone a little harder but 5 days later i was still bloody sore in the hammys from that session i was walking like i had steel rods in my legs hehe! I am really enjoying my Cardio's which are currently 3 HIIT sessions which i tend to mix up with Sprints, Cross trainer and sometimes recumbent bike, i still have one of these left for the week which i will do this evening and it will be a Sprint session.

Nutrition... well my macros are starting to drop now to get this body moving a long a little quicker. I tend to be filling my meals up with a lot of vegetables and in this cold weather they are quite nice to have : ) My new favorite Carb meal is Oats and strawberries with cinnamon and quite a runny texture hehe Mmm.

This weeks focus is just being positive with everything in my life a quote i came across this week i really liked is:

‎"If my mind can conceive it, and my heart can believe it - then I can achieve it."
— Muhammad Ali

Well i will leave you with that. Happy Training and continue to follow your goals and dreams : )

The weeks a rolling by!

Wow it has been quite some time since i last blogged i think about doing it all the time but seriously it has been pushed to the side a lil as there has been lots on my plate at the moment!

Hmm... where to start???

15 Weeks out wow i have been prepping for now 7 weeks and all is going well weight is slowly moving, body slowly changing and head games a slowly creeping in hehe.

The past couple of weeks have been sooooo busy getting up at anywhere between 4-6am and not getting home till 8-9pm with days that have been GO GO GO! Which has now resulted in a run down Hanni : ( a nice whopper of a cold sore and a bit of a tummy bug YAY! Over this long weekend i have mainly been resting and training and spending time with my Mickey : ) which i am really enjoying it was also nice to catch up with my parents which i haven't in a while.

About 2 weeks ago i went to the INBA Brisbane Titles nothing like a comp to give you goosebumps and desire to get back up on that stage. Was great catching up with friends, cheering on others and be SO proud of Mick getting up there after the most roughest prep ever. He did not make top 3 but he is a winner in my eyes, the discipline, dedication and desire to be up there is amazing he truly inspires me to chase my dreams too : )

I mentioned the head games have started and i think going to this show made me question a few things... What if i put in all this hard work and don't place : ( I know this is probably a normal thought but coming into my last show i didn't even consider placing until the night before when i was chatting with Mick about doing other shows. It freaked me out for a moment till i just stopped thought about it a bit and come to the conclusion as long as i put in all the hard work and bring what i am happy with to the stage i have won. Another head game is of course wanting more food hmmm i think this seems to pop up around TTOM which i am pretty good at recognizing and pulling that evil b*%$ch into line hehe. But also this week being a lil sick im not hugely hungry but just wanting simple things like toast with vegimite and butter lol. It will pass and the stronger i am at not caving into these temptations the better.

Still loving prep i have moments where i ask myself why the hell am i doing this again but at the end of the day my love for this sport over rules : ) My macros have been dropped a little but im still no where near feeling deprived im getting better in the kitchen at playing hehe no master chef but hey i'm the only one that has to eat it LOL!

What's on the agenda for today... Started the day with Combat class for my moderate cardio (Not the best effort due to tummy feeling a lil queasy) and i have a Lower Power session to bang out after luch ( will do my best and take my time where i need to.

Time to head off, wishing you all a great day working towards your goals, hopes and dreams.

Train hard cos..... THE TIME IS NOW!

A snap from 16 Weeks out... (Lot's of work to be done)