6 Weeks..... SIX WEEKS!!!

The count down continues and wow is it flying by! I am now, like the title says 6 Weeks out from the QLD INBA show and to be honest i am starting to shit myself, hehe! It seems one week I'm kicking ass mentally and then the next week i hit rock bottom, and this week has been one of those struggle street weeks! For no reason the scales decided to play tricks on me this week out of no where... we were pretty tight for a while and then bang they bloody turned against me lol! But in all honestly i feel a lil less stressed this prep i kind of know what to expect and I'm just going along with it all, this week i think things will be stepped up another notch, this is to be expected though i have been cruising along the last few weeks and I'm ready to turn it up! 6 more weeks of blood sweat and tears is nothing hehe just got to take each day as it comes i guess!

I've been asked quite a bit what it is i am craving for after show etc and to be honest there is nothing much that i REALLY want. I'm hopping to do possibly another show or 2 (If i qualify) so i don't want to gorge myself silly and this would be the case whether i do more shows or not! I have really tried to look at me struggle with over indulging over the past 2 years and i try and see food as fuel and not just comfort and im feeling good about it all... YAY! We will see what happens though!

Well just a lil post today time to get ready to head off and sprint my lil heart out! I hope everyone is enjoying there weekend!

Single Digits... OMG 8 Weeks!

What can i say but the weeks are seriously flying by! I am now, today 8 weeks out from first show i plan to do. I'm feeling in a great headspace (currently hehe), And ready to bring this home strong.

Weekends are now mostly focused on relaxing and catching up on sleep a lil more then socializing i found over the past week that my energy levels have started to drop and sleep is extremely important for growth and recovery right! : ) i haven't been sleeping too well at night, some nights are better then others.

This weekend i did some posing practice OMG i am SO glad that you don't have to be on stage for an hour posing today i feel like someone has whacked me in the back with a metal bar lol, thanks Skye : )

Today it's all about cardio i have a LISS session and a HIIT, LISS done and now gearing up for my HIIT which i will end this week with sprints (my favourite).

This week is a short week for me work wise having Friday off woohoo! It's been ages since i took a day off just because : ) Hmmm what to do lol?!

Nothing much to report in on... Nutrition still going strong, Weight sessions are still full of intensity, Cardios are well.... Cardios (Love hate relationship there hehe) and results wise i am rather happy with where i am at : ) One thing i get asked a lot is am i on track? Hmm i don't really know lol i think i am i feel ahead of where i was at my last show i feel more muscular yet leaner then where i was at in 2009. All i know is no matter what i will do what it takes to get up on that stage I'm so excited, i have an amazing support network backing me all the way plenty of people to chat to and share my goals with. Here is to another week of Great eating, awesome workouts and a fully focused mind!

WITH OR WITHOUT MY MOJO THE TIME IS NOW!!!

The good, the bad and the ugly.

Time to update you all again we are a lil under 9 weeks to go till the INBA QLD show and I'm feeling like WOW time is flying by AHHHH! Where i am at i am pretty happy but as you all know with in 24hours that can change LOL.

What i am getting at couple of weekends ago i was ready to throw in the towel out of know where and i mean KNOW WHERE i woke up and i just didn't want to do it anymore LOL! No matter how hard i tried to snap out of this "mood" it seemed the more i fought it the more i got worse! I went about my day headed to the Gym to train Back and Arms Hyper and the whole time i just wanted to leave and cry but i did what i had to and got to the car thats when i let out a tear or a million. Not only was i feeling emotional to add to this we had a lil car incident on the way home from the gym went round a corner, up and over medium strip doing a 180 into on coming traffic LUCKLY there was no one coming which is a first cos this strip of road is usually busy! Anyway cut a long boring story short this mood lasted all weekend. It wasn't until i stopped and asked my self what the hell i am doing over and over again that i realised i was the only one that was going to get me out of this mood. I had good chats with Mick ( who mind you was extremely amazing all weekend - THANK YOU) and eventually got my positive, motivated self back and have been going great guns since! First major meltdown this prep!!!

Since then the scales have been nice, food is great but could be a lil tighter in some areas, training is going well and the hard work is starting to become more visible WOOHOO!

I am so ready to dig deep and work my butt off 9 weeks is going to go by fast i want to get to the stage knowing i have put in my all! Even though now i can look back on a day here and there where i could have put in more but those days are done and i am ready to take on each day like a chance to out do the last

Update on the travels of prep

Well as of today marks 10.5 weeks out till i get up on that stage, and i WILL be getting up there : ). I have been crazy busy so therefore blogging has been put a little to the side. But here i am with a spare hmm 15 minutes (lets see how this goes).

So what have i been up too??? Besides Sleep, Eat, Work, Train, Prep food there hasn't been enough hours in the day to do much else. Prep is going great guns at the moment and there are somedays i still feel like i am not really prepping : ) But in saying that there are those days that pop up every now and then when my energy levels drop, my hungry inner bitch surfaces and i ask myself why the hell am i doing this again hehe. Once that moment passes I'm back on like a freight train! Bout 2 weeks ago i felt really scared that i wasn't going to make it my body was not budging and it was doing my head in :( But this, i want BAD i kept sticking to the plan and just like that the lil whoosh fairy granted my wish HOORAY and we are rolling along again.

On the food front i have been on the same macros for a lil while now and i am really loving the vegetables i have started incorporating in my meals and with this cold weather we have been having mmm it is just heaven my diet pretty much consists mostly of Chicken, Eggs, Oats, Vegetables and good ol peanut butter : ) these foods are of great volume and keep me feeling fuller for longer.

My exercise plan is still going strong 5 days of weights Power/Hyper split, 3 HIIT sessions, i teach 4 classes and now i have 2 LISS sessions added in, all very manageable.

I tend to find with prepping my socializing cops a bit of a sheltering but i am doing what i can to get out and about when i can, i have been bowling with a great group of friends, caught up for a quick chat with friends here and there, which i am also aiming to try squeeze in more of this, i went to the movies twice now and survived with out any chocolate LOL, and went to to watch WWE wrestling with Mick and his mate i must say the smell of fish and chips drove me crazy but looking at it was another story... talk about a grease box hehe! Maybe adding in this bit of social events has made my prep feel less preppy, i am happy to pack my food and take with me :) it seems that sometimes its more the company that has the problem.

Well thats my life in a nut shell at the moment, each day just focusing on the tasks ahead speaking of tasks it's time i had a date with the good ol cross trainer.

Happy Training everyone :)

Self Doubt

WOW what a week of painful head games and to be quite honest I'm not really sure what made them come about :( I have been battling all week really doubting myself about being ready for comp, not being the standard i want to be. I feel like i am working hard and getting no where. I also forget that how slow this process is and i am not the most patient person around. I just want to see changes faster :( I do tend to get a little caught up on what the scales say. And i do compare myself to where i have been at this point in the past. I would love to hear how others battle along when they hit sticky head games and feel like throwing it all in.

Currently 13 Weeks out and i do know a LOT can happen in 13 weeks i just feel like the weeks are flying by and Im playing catch up : ( I guess all i can do is give it my best and push on. I love what i do and i really want to get back up that stage this year i just have to do whatever it takes to get there.

Training this week has been pretty good I thought my first session of the week which was Lower Power, i could of possibly gone a little harder but 5 days later i was still bloody sore in the hammys from that session i was walking like i had steel rods in my legs hehe! I am really enjoying my Cardio's which are currently 3 HIIT sessions which i tend to mix up with Sprints, Cross trainer and sometimes recumbent bike, i still have one of these left for the week which i will do this evening and it will be a Sprint session.

Nutrition... well my macros are starting to drop now to get this body moving a long a little quicker. I tend to be filling my meals up with a lot of vegetables and in this cold weather they are quite nice to have : ) My new favorite Carb meal is Oats and strawberries with cinnamon and quite a runny texture hehe Mmm.

This weeks focus is just being positive with everything in my life a quote i came across this week i really liked is:

‎"If my mind can conceive it, and my heart can believe it - then I can achieve it."
— Muhammad Ali

Well i will leave you with that. Happy Training and continue to follow your goals and dreams : )

The weeks a rolling by!

Wow it has been quite some time since i last blogged i think about doing it all the time but seriously it has been pushed to the side a lil as there has been lots on my plate at the moment!

Hmm... where to start???

15 Weeks out wow i have been prepping for now 7 weeks and all is going well weight is slowly moving, body slowly changing and head games a slowly creeping in hehe.

The past couple of weeks have been sooooo busy getting up at anywhere between 4-6am and not getting home till 8-9pm with days that have been GO GO GO! Which has now resulted in a run down Hanni : ( a nice whopper of a cold sore and a bit of a tummy bug YAY! Over this long weekend i have mainly been resting and training and spending time with my Mickey : ) which i am really enjoying it was also nice to catch up with my parents which i haven't in a while.

About 2 weeks ago i went to the INBA Brisbane Titles nothing like a comp to give you goosebumps and desire to get back up on that stage. Was great catching up with friends, cheering on others and be SO proud of Mick getting up there after the most roughest prep ever. He did not make top 3 but he is a winner in my eyes, the discipline, dedication and desire to be up there is amazing he truly inspires me to chase my dreams too : )

I mentioned the head games have started and i think going to this show made me question a few things... What if i put in all this hard work and don't place : ( I know this is probably a normal thought but coming into my last show i didn't even consider placing until the night before when i was chatting with Mick about doing other shows. It freaked me out for a moment till i just stopped thought about it a bit and come to the conclusion as long as i put in all the hard work and bring what i am happy with to the stage i have won. Another head game is of course wanting more food hmmm i think this seems to pop up around TTOM which i am pretty good at recognizing and pulling that evil b*%$ch into line hehe. But also this week being a lil sick im not hugely hungry but just wanting simple things like toast with vegimite and butter lol. It will pass and the stronger i am at not caving into these temptations the better.

Still loving prep i have moments where i ask myself why the hell am i doing this again but at the end of the day my love for this sport over rules : ) My macros have been dropped a little but im still no where near feeling deprived im getting better in the kitchen at playing hehe no master chef but hey i'm the only one that has to eat it LOL!

What's on the agenda for today... Started the day with Combat class for my moderate cardio (Not the best effort due to tummy feeling a lil queasy) and i have a Lower Power session to bang out after luch ( will do my best and take my time where i need to.

Time to head off, wishing you all a great day working towards your goals, hopes and dreams.

Train hard cos..... THE TIME IS NOW!

A snap from 16 Weeks out... (Lot's of work to be done)

Are you scared to dream big?

It's natural to feel nervous about your goals and dreams i know myself sometimes they scare me, it's the unknown, the risks, the limits and the belief.

I am bringing this up due to my experience last year with prepping for a show that did not happen i dieted for 12 Weeks and pulled out at 8 weeks out due to my body just not responding. I get really nervous that it's going to happen again : (

I have been working with my coach since July 2010 we have been working on rebooting my metabolism so hopefully i won't have what happened last time occur.

After my first and only competition in 2009 i blew out like a lot of people tend to do. My eating increased quickly but i thought by doing heaps of cardio it would balance it all out thinking calorie in, calorie out, i guess i didn't realize just how sensitive your body is post comp even though i was warned by many. So from Oct 2009 to May 2010 my body got flogged with exercise to try and make up for the extra food i was having here and there and while i was doing this my metabolism was crushed.

So the last 9mths i have been really working on getting my metabolism mended by sticking too my macros the better i stuck to the plan the better i was going to be at achieving this yes i am human and there where times over xmas etc where i slipped up but in a hole not only have i worked hard at fixing this problem i feel so much more confident with my approach to food and just making it more about a balanced lifestyle. I love training, i love the way your body feels from clean and healthy eating but i also like that with these loves your body is the reward.

I have some pretty big goals, plans and dreams that i have decided that i want to put my all in for and nothing.. NOTHING is going to stop me from stepping up on that stage again : ) I am hoping that this year will be the start of some pretty amazing things but i do also understand at times there are mountains that will be needed to climb, there will be brick walls i may have to chisel at but there are also going to be times where a casual stroll through the park will be rewarded for those tough times. I am ready to tackle them : )

I am looking forward to heading to watch a couple of comps this weekend not only for the motivation and catching up with fellow friends but to cheer Mick on for all the hard work he has put in for this weekends comp. He has inspired me to not be scared to dream big, if it wasn't for Mick i would not have stepped on that stage in 2009 he was there for me 110% and i couldn't have done it with out him. THANK YOU MWAH xoxo

So we are half way through yet another busy week, i really shouldn't be on here lol i have so much to get done but i really want to keep blogging so you can join me on my journey to the stage again. I will leave it at that for now.

Don't be scared to dream big people work out what you want and give it your all. WHY???

THE TIME IS NOW

xo